yeah.right

outta sispec.

2006-08-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

10 weeks of bslc juz flew by...

hmmm...

air force school here i come.

whispering a prayer

2006-08-19T03:36:00.000+08:00

Steve vai --- Whispering a Prayer.

vai's sweetest ballad ever. =D

crying machine.

2006-08-19T03:35:00.000+08:00

now tis's pwetty entertaining... steve vai's crying machine..

aerials.

2006-08-19T02:58:00.000+08:00

System Of a Down --- Aerials.

high and dry

2006-07-16T20:22:00.000+08:00

high and dry.

2006-06-25T20:38:00.000+08:00

so i got into sispec bslc golf company platoon 4.
after goin' thru da first week, i have to say it's pretty tough.
but hell,
there's nothin' to feel shitty about.
coz tough times don't last,
tough men do.

haha. =p

pop loh.

2006-06-07T16:05:00.000+08:00

POP LOH!

great 2 months it's been in bmt scorpion.

lookin' forward to da next phase of challenge.

bmt

2006-05-14T20:04:00.000+08:00

3 weeks to POP.

apr 7

2006-04-07T01:39:00.000+08:00

april 7 2006.

da day i lose my mane.

sigh.

heh.

2006-04-04T00:35:00.000+08:00

heh.

sappy

2006-03-23T01:51:00.000+08:00

2a.m...
and tis song's on repeat...

And if you save yourself
You will make him happy
He'll keep you in a jar
And you'll think you're happy
He'll give you breathing holes
And you'll think you're happy
He'll cover you with grass
And you'll think you're happy now

You're really in a laundry room
You're really in a laundry room
The clue just came to you, oh

And if you cut yourself
You will think you're happy
He'll keep you in a jar
Then you'll make him happy
He'll give you breathing holes
Then you'll think you're happy
He'll cover you with grass
Then you'll think you're happy now

You're really in a laundry room
You're really in a laundry room
The clue that came to you, oh

You're really in a laundry room
You're really in a laundry room
The clue that came to you, oh

And if you fool yourself
You will make him happy
He'll keep you in a jar
Then you'll think you're happy
He'll give you breathing holes
Then you will seem happy
You'll wallow in his shit
Then you'll think you're happy now

You're really in a laundry room
You're really in a laundry room
You're really in a laundry room
The clue that came to you, oh.

sappy -- nirvana.

2.05a.m

bored.

2006-03-15T14:38:00.000+08:00

bored.

underworld evo

2006-03-02T01:38:00.000+08:00

underworld evolution is awesome.

ooOoo kate beckinsale. =D

oasis

2006-02-25T02:00:00.000+08:00

oasis gig feb 23rd 2006...

sucked.

mofos

2006-02-21T21:58:00.000+08:00

if ya think gays and homos are okay...
you got some problems.

cny

2006-01-31T23:41:00.000+08:00

27/01/2006: dream theater rocked da socks outta 3000+ peoplez at da indoor stadium. da show kicked a$$ despite da disappointing number of people and da usual 'technical problems' bullshit. great show. rest of da night was spent at geylang with pete n reuben. nah we didn't go whoring. we juz ate and chilled. good guys we are. =D

chinese new year. 3 days of red packets, won $$, lost $$, alcohol, goin' around here and there, peoplez...
pretty borin' one i had i feel.
happy lunar new year to y'all anyway. =)

*sian*

dream theater gig

2006-01-04T15:01:00.000+08:00

january 27
friday
8p.m
singapore indoor stadium

dream theater 20th anniversary tour 2006

who wants to come along?

2006-01-02T22:26:00.000+08:00

at times like now...
there's lotsa shit in my mind but it comes to a blank when i try to talk bout it.

ah fuck it.

dog dog

2005-12-29T15:01:00.000+08:00

so where will arguin' and fightin' lead to?

trash things out once and for all and da problem's settled. is it really like that?? issues like these will never end. more shit will come. so y'all gonna carry on like that? outbursts will not solve anythin'. hold ur emotions and let ur brain do more work.

at da end of it all... juz chill.

yf camp

2005-12-21T21:49:00.000+08:00

yf camp 2005.

good shit:

good times.
bathing times.
meals.
dirty.
bombs.
campfire.
cat.
singin'.
worship leadin'.
skits.
leg hair monster.
chronicles of mao.
banghra bollywood.
sanguine.
wonderful peoplez.
soph.
swi.
jiet.
shandy.
dai yan.
reuben.
gab.
nicholas&nicholas.
etc.

bad shit:

cough.
sore throat.
phlegm.
off-pitch.
eggs.
papayas.
flour.
disgusting shit.

and it's gettin' even more disgustin' dammit.

forget

2005-12-12T15:58:00.000+08:00

i have to forget.

disgustin'

2005-12-08T11:20:00.000+08:00

for some reason...
lotsa people and things around me seem really f***in' disgusting these days...

bloody hell.

2005-11-17T23:03:00.000+08:00

why?

vodka

2005-11-12T01:30:00.000+08:00

vodka...

da medicine for psychotic-insomnia syndrome...

insomnia?

2005-11-10T23:52:00.000+08:00

been goin' out alot tis days... watchin' movies... chillin' out... hangin' around here and there with different pplz... wastin' ca$h and tryna get a part-time job... in da day... it all seems and feels fine and well... till it comes to night-time...

insomnia...

been havin' tha shit for weeks... somethin' weird's happenin'... makin' me turn restless... makin' my head spin... makin' me feel strange... very stoned... more psychotic each day... a slow and calm process... but it works on da inside... can't describe... don't know how to explain... feels so messed up and confusing...

then i close my eyes and i feel nothing... da world stops... freezes... everythin' becomes still... i get to heave a sigh or relief... to breathe... to relax... for tha moment...

i read da bible... then i read another bible... gets me thinkin' a lil'... but doesn't affect my mind... my mind's filled up with nothingness... nothing surprises, nothing scares, nothing affects, nothing does anythin' anymore...

insomnia... not able to sleep... but not awake as well... where am i??

*stoned*

tribute to nirvana

2005-10-21T01:15:00.000+08:00

grunge lives forever.

long live nirvana.

2005-10-06T13:22:00.000+08:00

I wish I could be the one..
the one who won't care at all..
But being the one on the stand..
I know the way to go..
no one's guiding me..

unholy confessions -- avenged sevenfold

i care...
why da hell do i still care...

2005-10-05T22:20:00.000+08:00

to a certain someone... tis song's dedicated to ya...

There's something cold and blank
behind the smile
She's standing on an overpass
In her miracle mile

You were from a perfect world
A world that
threw me away today
Today
today
to run away

A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won't save her from herself

Her mouth was an empty cut
And she was waiting to fall
Just bleeding like a polaroid
Lost all her dolls

You were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today
Today
today
to run away

A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won't save her from herself

Coma White ---- Marilyn Manson

so fuckin' what?

2005-10-05T00:19:00.000+08:00

yeah so fuckin' what??

second heartbeat

2005-09-26T01:41:00.000+08:00

Second Heartbeat ---- Avenged Sevenfold

Gone...
We keep writing, talking and planning,
but everything's changing.
We all know what to do but no one does it.
Now this time has passed and full of regret.
Two in my heart have left me a while,
I stand alone.
When they get back,
it won't be the same...
Never be the same.

My life,
you've always been there.
Now you're gone and my head's spinning.
Left the childhood, left the memories, left the good times in the past.
Moving on your time has run out.

Wishing the clock would stand still, the world can wait.
Wasting away once again,
once lived as friends.

As time passes by,
regrets for the rest of my life.
The ones who I confide...
Were gone in the black of the night.

Never will I forget you, and all the memories past.
So rarely I get to see your face.
Growing I looked to you in guidance.
We knew that time would kill us, but you're still so close to me.
To me you were my life.
To me you were my soul companion.
Now you are so far away.
Nothing can take away the time and the memories we had.

Come back - to the days when we were young
Come back - to the days when nothing mattered.

asianbeat

2005-09-12T20:35:00.000+08:00

sept 24th 2005...

yamaha asianbeat 2005...

youth park...

3.20p.m...

see y'all there...

=D

heartbreak station

2005-08-17T23:22:00.000+08:00

HeartBreak Station ---- Cinderella

Waiting at the station
Tears filling up my eyes
Sometimes the pain you hide
Burns like a fire inside
Look out my window
Sometimes it's hard to see
The things you want in life
Come and go so easily

She took the last train out of my heart
She took the last train
And now I'll think I'll make a brand new start
She took the last train out of my heart

Watching the days go by
Thinking 'bout the plans we made
The days turn into years
Funny how they fade away
Sometimes I think of those days
Sometimes I just hide away
Waiting on that 9:20 train
Waiting on a memory

She took the last train out of my heart
She took the last train
And now I'll think I'll make a brand new start
She took the last train out of my heart

My lady's on the fly and she's never coming back
My love is like a steam train rolling down the tracks

She took the last train out of my heart
She took the last train
And now I'll think I'll make a new start
She took the last train out of my heart

E-Leave

2005-08-12T10:26:00.000+08:00

working on da 38th storey sucks. why?? coz when i take da lift down my ears go deaf coz of da pressure squeezed into my ears. totally shitty to feel deaf.

anyway. i need some help. IT pplz check tis out...

an employee E-Leave system is to be implemented using Microsoft Infopath to design da interface, SQL server 2003 as database and Windows Sharepoint Services. features include shit like date of leave, cancelling leave, type of leave bla bla bla and it's gotta be sent to da employees' superior automatically (making use of da active directory) and after approval, it sends back to da emplyee via CC to HR automatically. sending could be thru' e-mail, Microsoft Outlook or somethin' i don know. da records gotta be automatically updated in da database and also muz allow for manual modifications and updating. tis shit muz run preferably on SmallBusinessServer.

it's shitty. someone do tis shit up for me and i'll give him a hundred bucks or somethin'. =D

control

2005-08-02T22:38:00.000+08:00

control --- puddle of mudd

i love the way you look at me
i feel the pain you place inside
you lock me up inside your dirty cage
while i'm alone inside my mind
i like to teach you all the rules
i'd get to see them set in stone
i like it when you chain me to the bed
but then ya secrets never show

i need to feel you
you need to feel me
i can't control you
you're not the one for me, no
i can't control you
you can't control me
i need to feel you
So why's there even...

i love the way you rape my skin
i feel the hate you place inside
i need to get your voice out of my head
cause i'm the guy you'll never find
i think you know all of the rules
there's no expressions on your face
i hope that some day you will let me go
release me from my dirty cage

i need to feel you
you need to feel me
i can't control you
you're not the one for me, no
i can't control you
you can't control me
i need to feel you
so why's there even
you and me

i love the way you look at me
i love the way you smack my ass
i love the dirty things you do
i have control of you
i love the way you look at me
i love the way you smack my ass
i love the dirty things you do
i have control of you
i love the way you look at me
i love the way you smack my ass
i love the dirty things you do
i have control of you
i love the way you look at me
i love the way you smack my ass
i love the dirty things you do
i have control of you

I need to feel you
you need to feel me
i can't control you
you're not the one for me, no
i can't control you
you can't control me
i need to feel you
so why's there even you and me

You're not the one for me, no
You're not the one for me, no
You're not the one for me, no
You're not the one for me, no

nothin'... juz a random piece of shit.

enough

2005-07-24T23:19:00.000+08:00

week's been a long one. problems at work, problems everywhere, all da shit's gettin' to me real deep.
went for dimples' dance gig on saturday. she did wonderful. then played pool with my maggot brothers till 2a.m.
fast forward to sunday evening, went to expo to watch a gig with sam and pete. and there goes da weekend. week in week out. no big diff. it's all da same.

thinkin' bout all of it, all of my life recently.

lifeless, emptiness, nothingness, dead.

it's come to a point where i can't feel much anymore.
i don't give 2 shits to whatever is going on anymore.
nothing.
no more.
i've had enough of all da shit.
tear apart. take it away. get lost.
i had enough.

sin city

2005-07-18T00:08:00.000+08:00

sin city is good... really psycho good...

drift

2005-07-10T23:53:00.000+08:00

sunday. same ol' shit. like every other sunday. my only day of rest. after church, everyone disappeared. so there was only like pete skywalker, alf sideous and maself left stonin' and listenin' to slipknot and staind.

so we went to waste time, money and ourselves away in da arcade playin' daytona2 and sega rally. it was sure as hell fun. all da speed and driftin' juz gets me hooked. i don't even know how much we spent on tha shit but it was definitely alot. but oh well. at least we enjoyed gettin' high in da few hours.

fast forward to now. sunday 23.58. wha do we have tomorrow? from monday, till saturday. i don't wanna talk bout it.

sharona

2005-07-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

damn it's july... been more than a month since i started workin' tis shit-a$$ job... am still kickin' though... so it's still good... batman begins was cool... so was initial d... watched 'em both twice... yeah i'm crazy... so?? =D

go listen to "my sharona" by the knack... gets me frickin' high... haha...

gravity

2005-06-21T21:11:00.000+08:00

honey
it's been a long time coming
and i can't stop now
such a long time running
and i can't stop now

do you hear my heart beating
can you hear the sound
'cause i can't help thinking
and i don't look down

and then i looked up at the sun and i could see
all the way that gravity turns for you and me
and then i looked up at the sky and saw the sun
and the way that gravity pulls on everyone
on everyone

baby
it's been a long time waiting
such a long, long time
and i can't stop smiling
no i can't stop now

but do you hear my heart beating
can you hear that sound
'cause i can't help crying
and i won't look down

and then i looked up at the sun and i could see
all the way that gravity turns on you and me
and then i looked up at the sun and saw the sky
and the way that gravity pulls on you and i
on you and i

can you hear my heart beating
are you hearing that sound
'cause i can't help crying

and i won't look down

sigh

2005-06-16T00:23:00.000+08:00

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful,
It's true.

I saw your face,
In a crowded place,
And i don't know what to do.

Cos I'll never be with you.

stoned

2005-06-11T01:26:00.000+08:00

tis's not a poem...
nor a song...
it's juz...
a way of life...

sometimes...
i stare at nothing...
i think of nothing...
i feel nothing...
i hear nothing...
there's nothing...
absolute nothingness...

then thoughts start to emerge...
one by one...
in order...
i can think right...
i see everything in a wide point of view...
i take in all da shit...
then i feel it all...
then i think...
think...
everything...
then...
i feel nothing again...

tis's wha ya call...
stoning...
which is wha i do everyday...
infront of da com...
blank...
nothing...
then da hypnotising tune of a nirvana intro plays...
and i get lost...
in the music...
in the shit...
......

i'm so stoned...
...
...
...

personalilty

2005-05-17T20:20:00.000+08:00

nicky gave me a site for tis personality test

results:

(by da way, if y'all can't scroll down, it's da "a>"" lookin' thingy at da bottom. juz move da cursor there, no need to click on it. can't be bothered with tis error but yeah... )

You are a XSYT--Expressive Sentimental Physical Taker. This makes you a Firebrand.

You are volatile, sexy and sexually driven.

You're magnetic and fascinating, but you don't really enjoy playing the field -- it makes you nervous and preys on your insecurites. But when you fall for someone you fall hard.

If your friends don't like your partner or your partner doesn't like your friends it makes you suffer. Unfortunately the two are often in conflict -- you have excellent insight with your friends, but in a relationship you are blind. Trust your friends!

You blow hot and cold, with big highs and big lows. This makes the bad times very bad but the good times very good, so you tend to stay in a problem relationship much longer than you should.

You can be needy and jealous.

Fortunately you are cute as hell.

Of the 226466 people who have taken this quiz, 5.6 % are this type.

Stability results were moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.
Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.
Extraversion results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

trait snapshot:

messy, tough, disorganized, fearless, not rule conscious, likes the unknown, rarely worries, rash, attracted to the counter culture, rarely irritated, positive, resilient, abstract, not a perfectionist, risk taker, strange, weird, self reliant, leisurely, dangerous, anti-authority, trusting, optimistic, positive, thrill seeker, likes bizarre things

haha... yeah right... =P

screwed up

2005-05-13T00:18:00.000+08:00

da world is twisted, screwed up, completely.

word.

shit

2005-05-10T00:03:00.000+08:00

been drainin' myself out da past few days. spendin' money and wastin' time. it felt a'ight though, goin' out wit roldy to places like DOME in da frickin' art museum again and stayin' there till they close. we didn't get drunk though. think we juz got high so we started doin' crazy shit which i don't even really remember. think roldy himself can't remember too. maybe vanessa would remember. haha. but anyway all was well. i didn't get a hangover. juz tha i guess it leaves tis sick of it all feelin' inside as da days go by. shit i'm sick of everythin'. tis vacation's makin' me rot but hell no i don't want tis vacation to end. think i need my own drumset so i can take it out on 'em and at da same time make out some good shit outta it. all dat nirvana's sinkin' in my brain and i think it's messin' up my nerves. i'm feelin' it. totally. damn i'm goin' crazy.

out

2005-05-04T20:54:00.000+08:00

went out chillin' wit ma man reuben yesterday. went to olio dome at da art museum at dhoby ghaut to holla at vanessa. her shirt's like much too big for her it looks funny, but it's cute so it's cool. and da food cost a bomb. damn. after that we went to HMV at heeren. couldn't find nirvana's mtv unplugged concert video. anyone know where i can get it? after heeren we're already blitzed outta our skulls but we still went down to far east to get stuff. we walked and got confused and walked some more and got more confused but it was all good. after dat we walked some more before headin' back. gotta do tis again some time soon. =D

rain bbq

2005-05-02T00:09:00.000+08:00

BBQ in da rain... damn i ain't goin' thru' dat shit again... =/

gig

2005-04-30T21:57:00.000+08:00

yo y'all who came down for my gig today.. juz wanna say thank you... reuben, alf, dan, iwan, van, honey, jon, richard and whoever i forgot to name here... thanks and hope y'all enjoyed da kick-ass show... =)

coach carter

2005-04-29T21:35:00.000+08:00

yo y'all should all go catch coach carter man... it's a great great movie... good plot... good basketball... good shit... catch it aiight it's worth it... 5 stars... =)

2005-04-25T15:59:00.000+08:00

Smells Like Teen Spirit --- Nirvana

Load up on guns and bring your friends
It's fun to lose and to pretend
She's over bored and self assured
Oh no I know a dirty word

Hello hello hello how low
Hello hello hello how low
Hello hello hello how low
Hello hello hello

With the lights out
it's less dangerous
Here we are now
entertain us
i feel stupid
and contagious
Here we are now
entertain us

A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My libido
Yeah!

I'm worse at what I do best
And for this gift I feel blessed
Our little group has always been
And always will until the end

Hello hello hello how low
Hello hello hello how low
Hello hello hello how low
Hello hello hello

With the lights out
It's less dangerous
Here we are now
entertain us
I feel stupid
and contagious
Here we are now
entertain us

A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My Libido
Yeah

And I forget just why I taste
Oh yeah I guess it makes me smile
I found it hard
it was hard to find
Oh well whatever
nevermind

Hello hello hello how low
Hello hello hello how low
Hello hello hello how low
Hello hello hello

With the lights out
it's less dangerous
Here we are now
entertain us
I feel stupid
and contagious
Here we are now
entertain us

A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My libido

A denial
A denial
A denial
A denial
A denial
A denial
A denial
A denial
A denial

totally psycho.

wha'dup

2005-04-22T23:27:00.000+08:00

hey yo wha'dup y'all... was bored as hell so decided to try out wha's it like to do a blog and stuff... simply done here without complications so y'all can juz try and keep da crap-board alive a'iight... chill... ;)